Life here at the moment feels like its come to a stand still. I have been so ill that my normal daily routine has gone.
I am trying to decide if I should cancel my gym membership as I have not been since a week before my holiday.
I just cannot get myself up and out the door anymore, and by the time Im moving I feel that my limited energy is better spent getting stuff done here at home.
Its like I get 50 dollars to spend everyday, and going to the gym burns up about 25 of it. So everyday half my daily budget gets spent on something that really wasnt giving me a return.
I dont know if this makes sence but if it does, Id really appreciate some advice.
I have to get over feeling like a failure if I have to stop doing something I used to do. I have to learn that not matter what others say, I am not well, I am not firing on all cylinders and I have to devise a new way of conserving what little energy I have and used it where I get the most return.
Im sure once I make up my mind, my life will start to move forward again. Its hard when I was so busy before and now I just cannot be. Also dealing with the negativity of others is really getting to me. Thank god my hubby is understanding, I would be lost without him.